Little did I know when I purchased this book over a month ago, just how meaningful it would be for this time of life and this journey. I have only read the first couple of chapters and I am already feeling such a connection to Lysa Terkeurst's own journey. I am beginning to understand what she means when she speaks of disappointments that become divine appointments. Brokenness that allows us to fully surrender and encounter God. Learning how to wrestle well with life this side of heaven, knowing that we will be well on the other side - in between the two gardens.
I feel shattered and broken right now. An image that Terkeurst refers to is shattered to dust - dust that is a crucial ingredient of the Father to transform and for potential for new life. As dust mixes with water and becomes clay, this clay is placed in the potter's hands to be formed and shaped. I have pictured my heart broken into pieces and have an image of Christ, holding my heart and moulding my heart to be whole again. As He fills the cracks and empty places as only He can. Learning to let go of all control and allow God the control, knowing He has a plan - even in this mess called life. Letting go of perfection. Knowing that only God is perfect and He sees a perfect plan in the dust. Remembering that I am worthy - worthy of the Father's love and out of His great love for me, allowing Him to create from the dust.
"If our souls never ached with disappointments and disillusionments, we'd never fully admit and submit to our need for God. If we weren't ever shattered we'd never know the glorious touch of the Potter making something glorious out of dust, out of us."
I have loved blogging over these last 11 years. It once began as a means to keep friends and family connected to our children growing up a province away and then it became more. It became an outlet for me to share of myself and my journey and also to encourage others and spread some gratitude. However, I am choosing to take a break while I work to put the pieces of me back together and God-willing, my marriage and my family. Please continue to join with me in prayer.
Much love, peace and gratitude to each of you who have been so encouraging of me over the years.
Love ~ Jenn
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